My life, in 3D

 There's rarely a time in my life these days when I feel like Sammy, and not Hazzy's mum.

On those rare occasions when I am alone in my thoughts, listening to music while doing mundane tasks around the house, I sometimes feel like a character in a movie. Like there are audiences watching me. Although they are just watching me doing the dishes, they know my story and are curious to know what will happen next.

 Sometimes I wish I could watch my life story on a screen. The lives that I touched, and those that I hurt, the lucky moments, and those opportunities lost, the ones that I loved, and those I loved to hate, even the shameful mistakes I shouldn't have made, I want to see all of them unfold in front of my eyes. Would that reveal who I am? Could that make me a better person? Or would I just die of shame?

 I think of the moment when I will stand before God and my life story will be revealed in front of me. I hope that in that moment of truth I will be close enough to God to not shy away with shame but to thank Him for being patient with all my foolishness.